Lessons from My Blueberry Patch

Today

A more personal post

About the farm

And my blueberry season

This year.

The heat index may be inching towards 100 degrees, but the signs of fall are already here. My ornamental cherry tree has leaves that turned yellow which are beginning to float to the ground. The tobacco farmers around me are in harvest mode. They are always revving up as I am slowing down.

My blueberry season is officially over usually by mid-August. What’s left on the bushes is for the local fauna; the bees, birds, deer and any other critters who roam through the blueberry patch. I still go out to pick some berries for freezing, but the pressure is off. I’ve done my best.

Being a blueberry farmer has taught me so much. Humility, gratitude, generosity and acceptance of what happens. I have been reminded so many, many times that I am not the one in control. A way of thinking that puts so much burden on my shoulders, since I think it’s all up to me. So, learning this lesson, though humbling, is also freeing. Knowing that there is only so much that I can do.

Every day I walk around this land and give gratitude for all that I have. For being able to live here and steward this piece of land that I love. I thank all the earth spirits for teaching me how to live in harmony with the Mother. And over the years, I have noticed more and more the gifts I have received through a synchronistic relationship with Her.

Though I haven’t yet mastered easily moving through life this way. I still worry in spring if the number of berries, pickers and buyers will all overlap in perfect harmony. Despite my worries, it always does. What a stubborn creature of habit I am, with my spring worrying. You can set your calendar to the time when that nagging feeling begins to show up in my mind. Perhaps next year will be the year I cease this futile exercise in emotional self-doubt. I always hope for that.

But like many businesses, COVID has had its effect on me these past two seasons. With many of my buyers closed down, my orders were cut in half.

But here’s how the synchronicity works. The first summer of COVID, one variety of blueberries that I have, about 30% of my crop, didn’t produce any berries. I was in awe of them choosing that year not to produce. The vendor I bought those bushes from warned me that on occasion one of the two varieties I have may not produce one year. And so, I had fewer berries that year, but I didn’t need them anyway. Rest, dear bushes, for this season. A perfect time to do so.

I also lost many of my seasoned pickers due to COVID. A big lesson for me. How do I get the berries off these bushes for the buyers that want them? Somehow it all came together. And what I learned was that I had to meet people where they were. I had to grow and adjust myself as I was looking at a different way for the season to evolve.

So instead of my seasoned pickers, I had some very interesting people come up the driveway to pick. An older man, painter by trade, who was on disability and who needed a break from the rigors of climbing ladders. His son, who arrived in cowboy boots, cowboy hat, with a radio in his back pocket playing country music as he picked. A master gardener, who studied herpetology, and also had a medicinal herb garden at home. Something that came in handy for me, as I came down with a respiratory virus near season’s end.

Two young brothers, one legally blind who relied on his older brother for much. I don’t know how he did it, but he picked blueberries throughout the season, putting his face right up into the bushes. Every time my dog showed up in the row they were picking, they would both start singing ‘Ghost Dog’. Was it from a video game or TV show? I don’t know. But I told them that I would always hear that tune in my head when I thought of them.

A young woman who has had a troubled life, be it self-made or created for her by others, I don’t know. But she tried her best to keep her spirits up by singing while she picked. And finally, one of my old pickers, back in the area again, came to pick and was a god-send as I tried to train all the newer hands in the blueberry patch.

I’ve always worked with the energy here on this farm. Raising it every day to the point that people who are sensitive can feel the difference. It’s a place for healing. Many feel as if they are bursting through a protective bubble when they leave and drive back off into the world beyond my acreage.

And especially this summer, I felt that everyone who came to pick needed to be here. For their own healing or perhaps for my healing and personal growth. Teaching me to meet everyone where they were. Acknowledging their limitations and my own and accepting that, as we all worked hard to produce what needed to be harvested. So not only did they help me get my orders filled, they delivered some lessons to me as a bonus.

Every year, the thing I’ve always loved about having a blueberry farm is the circular nature of it. I have berries that need picking to sell to my buyers. And my pickers need money to pay their bills and so they show up at 6AM every morning. We are helping each other and I’ve always loved that feeling.

For despite what we might think, we are cyclic creatures. As the sun rises, so do we. As it sets, we begin to wind down. We have our routines that coincide with the cycles of the Mother. And so, as I see the leaves begin to turn on my cherry tree, I understand it is time to welcome autumn and all the joys it brings.

I’m looking forward to a quieter time. Not having to rise at 4:30AM and go to bed before the sun sets. But I am someone who needs to stay busy. What will I do now to live a purposeful life? I have no idea. But whatever it is, I’m certain there will be lessons involved.

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Worry Not

Art by Daniel Holeman

As this world of yours

Continues on its learning path.

Providing opportunities for growth

And expansion.

Understand that you still

Are embraced by loving arms

Gently guided from above

As you continue your journey forward.

Dear One, there is much for you to learn as your world continues forward guided from decisions past. Opportunities lay before you to walk in grace or in fear. Remember your divinity. Remember that your journey here in this embodied form is for personal growth. And for the growth of the All.

Raise your vision higher. Increase your vibratory energies. And choose to walk with love in your heart. Deny fear the entrance to your home. Acknowledge it knocking at your door, then send it on its way. For fear is not the path to take, now or at any time.

You are a being of love. Shining brightly through every pore of your physical being. Do not allow fear of the unknown to throw a cloak over that luminescence of which you are. If you can remember from where you have come and to where you will return, you will understand that all is well.

All that you see is an illusion. A holographic experience created for your personal growth. The stage was set and you were allowed free will to move forward as a babe is allowed to take its first steps independently. But always under the loving eye of the Oneness, the All. Always held in gratitude for the courage you had to embark upon this journey. Not knowing the physical outcome.

The spiritual, energetic outcome is well-known and has never changed. No matter what happens here upon this physical plane, you, Dear One, will return home to the welcoming embrace of the All. This is a given, for each and every one of you.

Understand the connection between all sentient beings. Among all of creation, seen and unseen. There has never been an effort to judge or punish you as you embark upon this journey of self-discovery. In fact, much has been done to make this journey forward as gentle as possible for you. For you are a child of the Divine, loved unconditionally.

You are stronger that you realize and that strength can be drawn upon during the most challenging times of your life. But it is easier to pull from that well of strength understanding your own divinity. Your own ability to create the world in which you choose to live. This is the gift you were given as you chose to incarnate at this time.

You, Dear One, are capable of miracles. And that is done through the act of love. Loving embrace of all that you see before you. Compassion and grace. Motivated ONLY by love and nothing else. But the human condition allows for emotional attachment which causes you much suffering and doubt.

Can you walk a path of love and gratitude, generosity and faith while viewing your world through compassionate detachment? Do what you can to change that which you no longer wish to experience. But step back and begin to observe from a higher viewpoint. That of a higher vibration. That of a divine being.

Dear One, understand that all that occurs in your life still leads you home, to your natural state. All that occurs in your life provides a lesson for you as an individual soul or for the collective consciousness. And all that occurs in your life is buffered as best is possible to provide the gentlest of lessons for you.

You are surrounded by love. And those around you can help you through the darkest moments. By witnessing with loving eyes. By holding you in high vibration. By surrounding you with the powerful elixir of love. All of these can also be done by you for another.

Can you have the faith that you are not alone and that you have the strength, the tools, to move forward in grace. No matter what occurs in your life. You are a divine being experiencing a physical existence as a brief interlude in your eternal life. These lessons are invaluable for you and for the All as you move forward beyond this physical existence.

Reach out and reach upward during your most challenging times. Your calls are always heard and answered. For we exist beside you as you breathe each breath throughout this physical journey. Worry not, Dear One, for the All feels everything you feel.

Remember that All are One. Move forward conscious of the connection you have with all which you see before you. Though an individual soul, you are connected to all of creation. Can you begin to act as part of a whole rather than as a single entity? For that is an illusion that can now be put to rest.

You are One with All.

You are strength, love and grace.

You have the power of love

As your most important tool.

Share it with all who cross your path.

Turn it back upon yourself

And douse the flame of self-judgment.

You are a creation of love that fills your every cell

Allow it to flow freely within and around you.

Change your world, one breath at a time.

Dearest One With All of Thee.

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Uncertainty and Self Doubt

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Do you wait for complete certainty

Before you act or speak?

Upon reflection, do you question

if you did or said the right thing?

Is absolute certainty necessary for forward movement?

Dear One, this physical plane is a ground for learning and self-discovery. You came here to learn how to be in a world entirely different from where you came. Instead of an atmosphere of unconditional love, you are finding your way in a world of dualities, where your inner-connectedness is more difficult to see.

Moving forward can be difficult when you are not sure if the next step you take is the right step; if you are not sure if the actions you already took were the best choices. Indecision can prevent you from taking any action at all. Self-doubt can cause regret and uncertainty of events past.

Understand that any new situation is providing you an opportunity for growth. When you stay within the circle of familiarity, you are operating out of habit. In fact, you may not even be conscious of certain actions. You need not engage because you have done the same thing so often before.

Think of how often you travel to a familiar destination and once there have no memory of the journey. Since you have done this so many times before, your mind, your thoughts, can be miles away, in the future or in the past, anywhere but in the present moment. And yet you arrive safely.

For this reason, changing your routine, stepping outside of your comfort zone, is necessary for growth. Be it a new environment, new acquaintances, or a new way of moving through familiar territory, all of these are conditions for growth. Do you chastise a young child for exploring new avenues, stretching their physical limits, or exploring new ways of expressing themselves?

A child does not wait for a time of complete certainty nor does she reflect upon actions with self-doubt. Quite the opposite, she is excited to be exploring the possibilities for new ways of being. But, you say, this child needs to learn to be cautious to avoid injury or hurt. And so, you keep a watchful eye to assure safety during her self-exploration.

How is that child different from you? Are you not a child of the Universe? Are you not surrounded by loving guides who are here to help guide you as you move forward? Can you move forward with more faith, in yourself and your connection to the All; with faith in the guidance you receive every moment of your day?

There can be no mistakes made here upon this plane. There are only opportunities for growth. And often the lesson is one of forgiveness, humility or non-judgment. These are lessons many of you came here to learn. Or perhaps the lesson is one of self-love, empowerment or neutrality. Any potential lesson will be difficult to learn if you hesitate to act without perfection; seeking it in yourself or others. If this physical plane offered perfection it would not be the wondrous place of learning that it is.

You might try on a different way of being and realize that it is not the right way to be. Lesson learned.  You might take a chance and speak out in a way you never have before and be amazed at the results. Lesson learned. Or you might approach another who you perceive as much different from yourself and realize the similarities in your lives. Lesson learned.

Dear One, do not hide behind a façade of familiarity and safety. Where is the growth in living a life of repetition and hesitation? Have faith in yourself and in your guides who are with you at all times. Spend quiet time with them so that you can begin to better trust the connections you have with the All.

Act with pure intent. And in times of reflection, think of the lessons provided to you over the course of your day. The moment of absolute certainty about a particular decision may never come. But you can still make a choice and embrace the lesson it provides you.

There are no wrong paths, for all paths move you forward and back to the Source. All paths.

Be like that child on a journey of adventure and self-exploration and stretch. And whatever the lessons learned, be they lessons of humility, forgiveness or self-empowerment, offer gratitude for them. And continue forward.

Be bold, be the courageous soul that you are.

Trust that we are here with you always.

And call upon us, for we are here to help and guide you.

Dear One, Dear One With All of Thee.

 

 

Gentle Lessons

Can you take a step back

And view your life from a higher perspective?

Can you reflect upon recent events in your life

And see the possibilities for growth

That they provide?

Dear One, there are many changes occurring throughout the Universe at this time. From the perspective of the human mind, with emotional attachments, these changes may appear to be negative, leading you in the wrong direction. We ask you to reflect upon them again, from a neutral viewpoint, and find the gentle lessons contained within these events.

The key to this exercise is coming from a place of neutrality, without emotion, as you consider the opportunities provided by the chain of events in your life. For everything that occurs in your life provides an opportunity, the possibility, for forward movement. But just as a bottle of unfiltered apple juice is turbulent when agitated, so is your vision of your life. It is not until the turbulence (emotion) settles down that the liquid (vision) becomes clearer.

With the human experience comes the opportunity to feel the full range of emotions from intense fear to unconditional love. In your natural state, you are surrounded by love and have no need to judge others or events. The lesson here upon this physical plane is to reach that same level of neutrality and compassionate detachment that you have in your natural state.

We are not suggesting that you shut down all human emotion, as that is one of the teaching points of this physical existence. What we are encouraging is that you acknowledge and walk through that emotion so that you can settle the inner turbulence that clouds your vision.

Dear One, remember that all are connected in a complex web of experiences designed to provide you opportunities for growth. You have free will to respond however you choose and each possible response will provide a different lesson. There is no blame, no judgment and no punishment involved in these possible outcomes. Any blame, judgment or punishment comes only from you in your human way of thinking.

Can you consider the possibility that your greatest adversaries are in your life to provide you the exact lessons you wished to learn during this human experience? Can you consider the possibility that those who have walked away did so because the lesson was complete or because it was necessary in order for you to grow?

If you are a being of light and love, as is all of creation, can you consider the possibility that all opportunities for growth are motivated by love? The human condition contains elements of amnesia so that you may not remember the reasons why certain events would provide the best opportunities for growth. And free will may alter the intended outcome.

Dear One, find comfort in the knowledge that no matter the event or the outcome you are surrounded by loving beings gently urging you forward. Allow yourself time to reflect upon your situation while shining light upon it to see it more clearly. Allow yourself to feel the emotional response it generates, but do not act until that turbulence settles and you can come from a place of more clarity and neutrality.

You, Dear One, are a being of light and love.

You are capable of greatness.

And you are loved unconditionally throughout the Universe.

For you ARE One With All of Thee.